I'm sorry If I had caused any insult. I am actually working on trying to get better. I have been looking at instructional videos posted on this site and trying to get a hold of some friends in my schools chorus department to ask them for advice.
You asked "So, the better question is, what does it mean to you to be a singer?", and honesty, its the one thing in my life I can truly enjoy without the care of social approval of others. I have been involved in music almost my whole life, in a few bands back in high school but never did vocals, and after trying various instruments, I have only recently realized I love singing more than playing a guitar or the violin or anything else.
I also have a job, and go to school full time, and barely have time to go to the gym a few times a week, but on that few hours on a Saturday night I have some time to do a little singing, and I take it serious every time. I have started recording myself, not to gloat, but to listen to what I am doing wrong.
I could honestly care less about the claps in the audience as most of them don't even know the song. I know the song isn't the greatest. I was more or less looking to see what someone who actually understands music a lot better then the average idiot in a bar, to help me see the flaws that I can't hear so I know what to improve...
I was under the impression that I could come here to have my voice criticized so I can make improvements, not to be pat on the back. I have respect for all of you and hope I don't cause any insult. I am working to get better, I will get better, and when I feel I have something to show true improvement, I will post more.
For the record, I did not drink before that song, (and I hardly ever drink, just a once a week watch the game at the bar kinda thing with some friends), in hopes of doing better then my last post, but that did not seem to help at all...